through meditation recently, it was revealed to me what this depression phase has ultimately been about. I lost my joy. It was slow, and not always noticeable. I am mindful, I stay my gratitudes in life daily. But, something has been missing. I came across an affirmation I wrote to myself back in the 90’s after some very painful events. It said ” I have found that my life works best when I put fun and have joy in my life. I will keep joy a priority.
I guess 15 years for the most part, even through harder times I kept it. And then lately, it was released unknowingly. But, now I am aware. I will find it again. I know some of the feelings I associate with joy in my life are: creativity, daring, playful, fascinated, teachable, sexy, laughter, extravagant, amused, aware, energetic, excited, growth, discovery.
i am excited to have the revelation, and to regain what I know helps my life stay in balance.