I just read up on Derrick Coleman, and I must say I am quite impressed. I am deaf. I have bi lateral cochlear implants, that were activated 2 years ago exactly. The journey has been stressful, frustrating, lonely, happy, funny, and exhausting. What I love about Derrick, is he hasn’t allowed his hearing disability to define him. HE IS GOING TO BE IN THE SUPERBOWL! GO DERRICK!
It is HARD to be deaf in a hearing persons world. But, LIFE is fucking hard sometimes! I can throw a really damn good pity party, but in all honesty I am better off than many “hearing” people. I worked for years in counseling, and MOST of the time, people didn’t know i was severely hearing impaired unless I told them. I adjusted by reading body language, lip reading, and pretending a lot! (LOL). When my hearing suddenly worsened, and I just couldn’t fake it anymore, it did begin to affect my life. One tends to socialize less and avoid loud places-which cuts out lots of restaurants. And, i don’t know about other “hard of hearing” people, but when i still had my hearing, i tended to “like” people with loud voices better than those with soft voices! I found myself making a judgment call based on voice pattern and tone!
But, guess what? Getting cochlear implants did NOT make or break my life. I traded in any residual hearing I had for zero. So, for all the technicality and deaf culture issues and debtate over the cochlear shit, I AM DEAF. When i do not have them attached to my skull by their magnetic force, i can not HEAR a thing. Not my own voice. Not my own heart beat. Not a cry for help, Nor a barking dog warning me of danger.
When talking on the phone is not an option, one tends to feel very blessed for the great invention of “texting”. It truly does become a main communication source. Closed Captioning makes or breaks watching something on TV. And slapping those magnetic, magic and heavy implants on your skull every day, can be a pain in the ass. It is not just about putting on a pair of glasses. You gotta charge the batteries every night, attach the batteries, before placing the cochlears on.Deal with throbbing skull points from magnets on your brain. There are “mapping” issues, and remote issues, and noise issues, and some sounds are just always going to now just be noise. Nothing more; Nothing less. The artificial sounds and extra stimulation that hearing people learn to “tune out” are amplified and extreme when one has cochlear attached. But, guess what? When i am on a plane, and a screaming baby is next to me, i pop my magnets off, and I hear NOTHING. Pretty nice, huh? When the TV is so loud and I am the only once cringing, I pop those babies off, and bask in the quiet. Why bitch about a loud TV?
Life is not right nor wrong. Not Good or Bad. I can choose to make it my enemy or make it my Bitch. And, on some days, I am THE Bitch. The End.