Today, I will submit to the insecurity and have faith that I can live through the process and grow.
I can choose to do that; it is within my control.
My daughter ( a Sr. in college), is traveling on the East coast. She was supposed to fly back to her college hometown tomorrow, but texted me that a friend was able to drive her instead. Would I be mad? I actually prefer her driving because she was going to have to fly to Chicago for a layover. Well, she has anxiety attacks, and the thought of her getting stuck in an airport for 8 hours or more, well…would end up with me having anxiety over her situation. I can’t control her decision, and thankfully I am aware of this. Luckily, this time we have the same conclusion. But, what if we didn’t?
Controlling kicks in. I tell her what I want; she disagrees. I try manipulation, scare-tactics, common sense, and anything else that would yield the result I want to SEE. THAT is controlling.
I realize ultimately, GOD is in control over everything. I have the illusion that in my every day life, the choices I make give me control. If I look too far forward, or focus too much on the past, it takes me out of this VERY and ONLY present moment. I am grateful to be aware of the illusion of control. Just for TODAY.